Letters to my past!
Writing this article wasn’t in my iternary anywhere today. Woke up with a splitting headache, thanks to series of netflix from the past 3 days! But just like every other day, my mornings start with finding my mother sipping tea quietly beside me while she watches me sleep. For she knows the aroma of tea kind of wakes me up too! Give me my cup of tea , I said today too with my droopy face just like any other day!
This is how I want to wake up every damn day! When you know your mother can sit on the couch, watch tv, scroll around her phone but she chooses to start her day watching your face and have her favourite cup of tea, sitting beside me watching me sleep. Its surreal how a mother loves you! But this article isn’t about this!
It’s about how my life has been so unpredictable! Well it is like that for most of us. Isn’t it? But people have a plan and they want to stick to it. Back then when I started blogging I started off because I needed an escape from how much trapped I felt inside my circle. I needed to breakthrough! I was an extrovert stuck between introverts. It was getting suffocating to kind of blend in and rather painful to think of settling at where I was! So numbed the past and move to the future. That’s how I found my happy space. When I took to blogging it was the best plunge I have ever taken. Because it healed me from inside. I discovered how many layers can we have beneath us only if we put it to test! I started to connect with you all, be more open about my feelings, day after day I started to receive tremendous response. Internet has the power and that liberates you.
One year into this, I decided to turn this into my full time career. Not only did I became financially independent I went through a complete transformation. Past 3 years have been most successful years of my career however I still feel I am not yet halfway through the goals I have set to achieve and feeling that is good thing. This feeling keeps me on my toes.
Ironically we are humans no matter how much digital this world becomes you come in contact with lot of people, engage, interact, associate, do business, make friends from the industry. I am amazed how much I have grown as a person where I am today. Emotionally and professionally! But it is quite rightly said to reach your goal you need to sacrifice people. Obviously people who messed the eff out of you, didn’t care enough or weren’t right for you! Because you know your priority! And that gets you going!
This post is quite literally dedicated to some amazing people I left behind during my process of moving forward only so that we could accomodate new people in our lives. I have absolutely no reason why I feel like halting here and writing about this feeling today about people I left in the past but I guess this was much needed as the flashbacks from pasts were kind of playing in my head since one week. I resorted to netflix, but hey for how long!?
So here it goes!
Letter to the past:
“Dear friends from the past or rather dear ex-friends or may be even dear ex- boyfriends,
Yes there is anger, turmoil, pain, awkardness at where we ended. But now who cares, we are numb to feel anything, we have obviously grown out of it. This isn’t a reconciliation letter. Nor is it a welcome back speech!
Today I am writing this because I sense a void in my heart and I thought I need to address it. Today I want to thank you for the immense transformation I have had because of you!
Beneath all of the worse of behaviours and dealing with our complexity, I seeked inspiration to be a kick-ass person. You helped me peel out my own layers and discover the person I was actually becoming! You set parameters of what to be and not to be. It was meant to be only until it was meant to be. Now that we are numb to the pain caused, I now discover what role you played in my destiny. Thank you for playing with the grey areas and fears in my mind! It was a breakthrough exercise I much needed to be the woman I am becoming today, and I am in love with the person that I am becoming! You were one of the puzzle in my jigsaw, not the last one but an important one to move forward! You made me look deeper into spirituality. Every experience leads us to our destiny! Thank you for the awakening. We know that we are strong, independent and capable of doing great things single handed-ly! Thank you for the liberation and the freedom and most importantly thank you for taking away the filter of sensitivity. Waving at ya from a place that feels freaking awesome, please know that there are No Regrets.
Story: Swati Sharma
Photography: Sushant Sawant
Location: Express Inn Nashik